Honestly, I am not sure that I ever did. Survive in that bigger pond, I mean. When I was growing up we moved so much. I've said in my book that it was part of my parent's plan to keep us upwardly mobile. I say it jokingly, and I know they kept creating change in our lives because they wanted all of us, including themselves, to have a good life.
I'm about to say something here that I have never written. Because of my particular life's journey, certainly we all have our own stories to tell, don't we? I'd love to hear yours. But, you see, I had gone to 15 different schools before I turned 14 years old. But when our family landed in the small town of Martinsville, Indiana we finally stuck. I was there from mid 7th grade through high school and then on to college. I can truly say that it was probably the time in my life when I felt I belonged the most. It was fleeting. And as I look back now as a mature woman, I wonder if I belonged then. Other high school girl friends have stayed close. I tried, but lost out. I see old friends on facebook, that's cool. But I feel isolated even then.
I cannot be alone when I say that I never really quite felt like I fit in. Has anyone else lived years and years without a sense of connection to a group? I have realized after years the moving around we did, the making new friends, the role of the new girl in school that I so many times portrayed, wore on me overtime. And as a defense for this I many times did not give completely give of myself to anyone. I just assumed I'd be moving on again soon. This was reflected later in my adult relationships.
But this crazy self-psychoanalyis of who I was and how I am brings me to the reason that Business Women Connect and my work with writing and speaking to women has become my life's work. The reason for my passion for motivating and inspiring women, for creating support and resources, for at times taking on my shoulders the problems of others is really so that I can create a sense of belonging for me, too. And along with creating my own sense of belonging, I bring other women along the way who perhaps have felt misplaced, like me.
And I want women just like me, women who are my sisters in striving to find their place, to understand that I created Business Women Connect for us. Successful or not, it is one of few things in my life that I have been completely committed to. It is my love and my passion to encourage and support and assist one find her power and live it.
On my way to this 10 years of BWC I've had lots of learning to do, lots of stances to take against people who said I couldn't do it...friends and critics who still say I haven't done it. I have very little encouragement but I stay the course. And I've made some fabulous new friends, have brought into my tribe women who "get it" whom I love and respect.
My story continues with the financing for this crazy website, the times I was told to stop and the great women who stood by my vision. Thanks for reading my personal rant...Next time...
I'm about to say something here that I have never written. Because of my particular life's journey, certainly we all have our own stories to tell, don't we? I'd love to hear yours. But, you see, I had gone to 15 different schools before I turned 14 years old. But when our family landed in the small town of Martinsville, Indiana we finally stuck. I was there from mid 7th grade through high school and then on to college. I can truly say that it was probably the time in my life when I felt I belonged the most. It was fleeting. And as I look back now as a mature woman, I wonder if I belonged then. Other high school girl friends have stayed close. I tried, but lost out. I see old friends on facebook, that's cool. But I feel isolated even then.
I cannot be alone when I say that I never really quite felt like I fit in. Has anyone else lived years and years without a sense of connection to a group? I have realized after years the moving around we did, the making new friends, the role of the new girl in school that I so many times portrayed, wore on me overtime. And as a defense for this I many times did not give completely give of myself to anyone. I just assumed I'd be moving on again soon. This was reflected later in my adult relationships.
But this crazy self-psychoanalyis of who I was and how I am brings me to the reason that Business Women Connect and my work with writing and speaking to women has become my life's work. The reason for my passion for motivating and inspiring women, for creating support and resources, for at times taking on my shoulders the problems of others is really so that I can create a sense of belonging for me, too. And along with creating my own sense of belonging, I bring other women along the way who perhaps have felt misplaced, like me.
And I want women just like me, women who are my sisters in striving to find their place, to understand that I created Business Women Connect for us. Successful or not, it is one of few things in my life that I have been completely committed to. It is my love and my passion to encourage and support and assist one find her power and live it.
On my way to this 10 years of BWC I've had lots of learning to do, lots of stances to take against people who said I couldn't do it...friends and critics who still say I haven't done it. I have very little encouragement but I stay the course. And I've made some fabulous new friends, have brought into my tribe women who "get it" whom I love and respect.
My story continues with the financing for this crazy website, the times I was told to stop and the great women who stood by my vision. Thanks for reading my personal rant...Next time...
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